Publishing platforms interview #1, featuring Caitlin M.S. Buxbaum

CMSB Interview

This past year, I’ve made the decision to self-publish The Dark Queen of Darkness. I met with a local graphic artist/cover designer to start that process going and he offered up a tremendous amount of really good advice. This is my first time to this rodeo, so there’s a hell of a lot I don’t know, which isn’t really a surprise to me, but it leaves me with huge, icy snowdrifts of work. One of the things he pointed out was that I needed to start thinking about a publishing platform. It seems to me that everyone uses Amazon Create Space, which is what I was sort of expecting to do. However, he presented a really good argument about using a different platform so I’ve got additional avenues for advertising and marketing.

With all this in mind, I’m going to try to do a series of ‘interview-style’ blog posts asking people about their experiences with publishing. My first guest is Caitlin Buxbaum. She’s a local Alaskan author and just self-published a set of 3 books of poetry, links below. Here is what she had to say, interview style:

D: Hi Caitlin, it’s a bit funny to be asking you questions, as I remember we first connected when you interviewed me for a local newspaper when I was trying to crowd-fund for Wine Bottles and Broomsticks, which didn’t succeed.

C: Hey Dave, it is funny — I’ve actually been thinking about Wine Bottles a lot recently, but I had totally forgotten I wrote an article about it. And that that’s how we met. Whoops!

But — you totally shouldn’t give up on that book. I really liked the parts I read in terms of general storyline, and I know I laughed out loud at least once while reading it.

D: To start, could you tell me a little about what you just published?

C: Over Spring Break (which I have because I’m a teacher) I published three books of poetry: Songs from the Underground’ Ever Unknown, Ever Misunderstood; and Uneven Lanes. The first is the first compilation I made, back in 2012 as an undergrad. A lot of the poems were assignments in my poetry class at Gustavus Adolphus College with Joyce Sutphen, who was named the poet laureate of Minnesota the year before. So, I played with form and rhyme schemes a lot more — some of which I had never heard of prior to that class — and it saw a lot of peer review, some of which made it onto the back/inside pages of the book. It has some photos and paintings of mine inside as well. I’m definitely most proud of that work.

Ever Unknown came about during Camp NaNoWriMo (July) of 2013, the summer before my senior year at Gustavus. It’s a really reflective collection, with some funny family and philosophical poems in the first two sections, and some more serious pieces in the last section. It has a few photos in it, but not as many as in my first book. I think all of the poems are in free verse, except one (which, surprisingly, is probably my favorite).

Uneven Lanes is the freshest was written primarily during Camp NaNoWriMo (July) of 2017, the month I got married, so there are a lot of family-centered and, honestly, anxiety-inspired poems in that one. I was actually having a hard time coming up with a cover for quite a while, then the earthquake happened and I went out a few days later and took some pictures, and a few weeks ago realized one of them would be kind of perfect, and very Alaskan. This book is a little shorter and, dare I say, less polished than the others, but no less honest. Most of the poetry I write is pretty personal and straightforward.

I also published a book called Wabi-Sabi World: An Artist’s Search, which is a compilation of essays, photos, and haiku that I created for one of my senior thesis projects. But that’s more of an academic text I would say, which I envision being a good library resource for student research.

D: Why did you choose self-publishing for these works?

C: There are a lot of things that went into my decision to self-publish my poetry, but the two most significant, I would say, were speed and “need.” I think I spent two 10-hour days prepping and uploading my documents for publication, and they were available to buy (as eBooks) within 24 hours. That’s huge. I also thought it would be a unique way to supplement my fundraising efforts for my upcoming trip to Rwanda while gaining some measure of street cred as an author (though perhaps I was overly optimistic in that regard, haha). 

D: You chose Blurb as the publishing platform, how did you come to choose Blurb over other options?

C: So I actually published on Smashwords first, which, it’s been said, is the largest eBook distribution platform there is. I then went to Blurb to create paperback versions of my books because Smashwords doesn’t have that capability, and I already had the software downloaded on my computer (I heard about it from NaNoWriMo a while back and had played around with it). Then I did some more research and found out that most eBook authors publish on Smashwords AND Amazon, so I checked out Kindle Direct Publishing and thought ‘damn, why didn’t I do this earlier.’ 

D: Could you give me a brief description of what that process was like?

C: Oh boy. The learning curve was huge. Fortunately, I’m a quick study. So with Smashwords, I read the founder’s free eBook on how to do the thing, from start to finish. Normally I would wave my hand and say ‘Nah, I got this,’ but let me tell you — READ THE BOOK FIRST. I skimmed some parts that I later had to go back and re-read to figure out how to do things like use templates and styles instead of page breaks and individualized formatting in Microsoft Word, as well as link the table of contents to each poem. I think the whole process was definitely harder because I was working with poems, some of which use creative spacing that Word kind of gags on if you don’t set things up just right.

The way I see it, Smashwords is more for PC/analog types, whereas Blurb and Amazon/Kindle are more for Mac and iPhone users — you have less control, but in most ways, their software is more user-friendly, especially for first-timers. Kindle is a little cleaner and faster than Blurb, but at least with eBooks, it’s more limiting in terms of font styles and formatting. If you’re not using photos in your books though, I would say go with Kindle.

D: Would you use Blurb again in the future? Why or why not?

C: Now that I’ve figured out KDP, and I’m not planning on publishing any more poetry/photography combos any time soon, I’m not sure Blurb is the way to go. A lot of people do publish there but I don’t know how many actually buy books from there. Also, it’s hard to have a good profit margin because the print costs are so high; if the goal is to get strangers to actually buy your books AND make good money, you’re going to have a tough row to hoe.

With KDP, I found out after I had uploaded my manuscript that if your eBook is short enough, Amazon won’t let you charge more than $9.99, or take the 70% profit they say is an option; you’re forced to take the 35%. Same with the print versions — you can up your price, but you still get the smaller cut if your book is too short.

But if you’re only doing eBooks, Smashwords has the best profit margin, since they don’t have to print anything and you can set your price as high as you want. The problem I’m seeing now, though, is that a lot of your average readers still don’t know what Smashwords is, but as soon as you mention Amazon they sit up and take notice; they “like,” comment, share, even if they don’t buy your book.

D: Thinking about self-publishing in general, to this point, what do you feel has been the biggest challenge?

C: Marketing, marketing, marketing. My books have only been out for a couple weeks but I’m realizing very quickly that just because I have 700 Facebook friends doesn’t mean they’re all going to want to buy my books or even “like” or share a post. I’m actually kind of embarrassed by how much support I was banking on from friends and acquaintances, only to find out that some people would rather donate to a GoFundMe and get nothing in return than buy a book of poetry (and some apparently just don’t follow me or my posts at all). It’s been a very enlightening process, one which will probably go on for months. But it’s good I’m doing this now with work that I’m not as committed to as my novels before I consider self-publishing those bigger works.

D: How do you feel about the print & binding quality of your printed books?

C: I actually haven’t received any of my printed books yet, but I love the hardcover Wabi-Sabi book my dad got from Blurb, and I’ve had great experience with Photobook America (I “published” Songs and Ever Unknown for personal use some time ago) so I’m anticipating at least equal quality from Amazon, which is obviously a much more well-known company.

D: Would you self-publish again? If so, what, if anything, would you do differently?

C: I’d say it’s a solid maybe, but I think I would be more inclined to help other authors publish their stuff; like, ‘hey, you pay me to format your manuscript and remove the typos and I’ll send it back to you so you can upload it yourself.’ Because that part was a pain in the ass, but now I know how to do it, so I feel like I’ve leveled up as a writer/editor/publisher, in a way.

And next time, I would start with KDP, and maybe skip the other platforms altogether. Who knows?

I have several novels in the works, but I’m going to try querying agents for a bit longer before I think about self-publishing them.

D: Thank you for taking the time to respond to these questions.

C: No problem! Just wanted to add: I published my poetry under my full name, Caitlin M. S. Buxbaum, but I intend to publish my novels under the name Cait Buxbaum. It’s mostly a style thing, but also kind of an identity thing; I feel like a little bit of a different writer as a poet than as a novelist, and since novels are where I want to be, all my platforms emphasize that identity.

You can find Cait’s books of poetry on AmazonBlurb, and Smashwords. Learn more about Cait and her work at caitbuxbaum.com.

Self-pub vs. Traditional: A Decision

Before I go anywhere with my decision (I’m sure you’re guessing where I landed here), I’d like to pose a quick question:

How do most writers earn their living?

If you didn’t say “Day job,” You’re in a minority. Yes, there are loads of professional writers maybe even one of them will read this blog, but if Twitter is any indication, writers with day jobs outnumber the full-time paid writers by something like six billion to 1. I’m absolutely no exception.

Last winter, the question of ‘making a living’ manifested itself under my bed and set-up shop, taunting me for nights on end. It all started with the comment: “I’d slit my wrists if I had to read much more of this.” As far as professional critical feedback goes, this is pretty much the pinnacle. The comment wasn’t the whole of it though, just the start. The other key part involved the addition of a new project at my day job which meant weekends being basically spoken for. With all of this on my mind, I concluded that not only is the quality of my writing improving much more slowly than I’d imagined, but also that my day job does, in fact, pay pretty well and is important to my family. This led me to the realization that I am absolutely not going to be able to replace a real paycheck with writing anytime in the near future. While I recognize it’s possible to work hard and shift careers like this, I’ve got way too many other responsibilities at this stage in my life for that to be truly practical. All of this led me to the understanding that not only is traditional publishing well outside the realm of possibility for me, I don’t really want to pursue it anyhow.

My logic is this: If I got an agent and a book deal (big fucking if here, I know), but if that’s what I worked to, the best case scenario* is that I’d be subject to deadlines I didn’t set, egos that don’t belong to me, and pressure to produce more or less the same thing I already did that everyone liked so much AND AND AND I get to continue working my day job to feed my family & put a roof over our heads….

Why would I pursue this again? To remove all of the enjoyment from something I like doing without even getting a real pay-check? No, just no. If I’m going to work a second job, it’s going to be on my terms.

This leaves self-publishing. I get the freedom to work with an editor of my choosing, have full oversight and final decision making on cover design, AND I get to choose to publish whatever the hell I like on my own terms. Yes, this is an expensive road and I’m conceding that the financial results are going to be underwhelming, but I think once I start getting my stuff out there and picking up readers, I might make enough to cover my costs and maybe make a bit more to cover the next project. PLUS, if I have to put writing aside for a stretch to deal with life, I can do that on my own terms.

Anyhow, with all that in mind, I’m going to start working with an editor in November to bring The Dark Queen of Darkness into shape. My target release is September 2019. I’m sure I’ll be blogging about that as I being the process of working with an editor and getting set-up for self-publishing.

 


*Yes, there is another best-case scenario, which runs something like “…but J.K. Rowling… and now she’s got more money than the queen!” Okay, yes, that sometimes happens, but I’m not a J.K. Rowling and won’t ever be. I’m going to be Dave S. Koster (and sometimes another pen name), and that guy is pretty sure ‘viral success’ is always something that happens to someone else.

REALITY CHECK – Getting a one-on-one agent review

It’s no secret that writers have big egos. Even when invited to eviscerate someone’s work, I don’t want to do it because while I want to help them, I don’t want to hurt them. Usually, though, the worst ego-bruising events have to do with rejections. I mean, we all get to the point where we’ve finished something and send it off to an agent only to have a short, terse, message come back with some version of “no,” provided we get anything back at all. Normally, these things come without context or explanation. What you rarely get though, on an unsolicited query, is anything more than that. However, if you did, I promise, your ego would be harmed beyond merely ‘bruised’.

Personally, I look at a rejection and wonder, but why? What was the reason that this has been rejected? How can I improve if all I ever get is no?

This fall, I had the opportunity to get a one-on-one review of my work by a big-time New York agent with a big publishing house. To be clear, I paid for this. I thought that having this review would finally get me to the answer of “but why did you reject this?” The goal was to find a compass bearing on the improvement process. Maybe I’d even get a sense of whether or not I was writing things that could be marketable.

Spoiler alert: I didn’t come away with an improvement strategy as much as a recommendation to be a completely different writer. I also cried. And if you’re looking for a reason to ugly cry with sort of minimal collateral damage, this is a really good strategy.

The first piece we looked at was Deep Space. I read about half of the prologue in a group setting. At the time, and especially now, I regard this piece as thoroughly unfinished. Not ready for submission and not ready for beta-readers or in-depth critiques beyond perhaps that first bit. I received the very, very favorable feedback of “That’s fun, I’d read more of that” This comment was followed by some commentary on the contents and structure which I generally regard as productive, but indicates much re-writing. This was 100% in-line with expectations, except for the bit where he handed me his card and invited me to query him O_o. Best case scenario right? (well, yes, but there’s more). After having my ego so rapidly and enormously inflated, what came next was painful and, to be perfectly honest, a little bit humiliating.

The next day, at my appointed time, I went in for a one-on-one on Hexe – at the time, this one was drafted and out for early readers to come back and tell me what’s wrong. Most definitely ready for critique, in any case. I am (was) proud of this work, even after nearly trashing it this spring. It’s got some good humor, it’s got a light fun tone and the characters are memorable. So memorable that my daughter was trying to make Hexe’s castle in minecraft – high praise from her, I can tell you. So, what was my feedback do you think? I have to paraphrase this one, because we spent twenty minutes covering the same ground. “This is really, not very good. It’s solidly one-note and I couldn’t imagine reading this for… How long is it? 120K? no, cut that down to 75K, max…” and it went on. The bits of feedback can be summarized in the following bullets:

– It’s one-note

– Play it straight

– Get there faster, shorten it up

– Make the main character more likable

– and (INFURIATINGLY) The writing itself is pretty good, can’t fault that.

He then spent the last few minutes asking why the hell I hadn’t given him deep space. I told him it wasn’t ready yet, I really wanted the feedback on this one. After hearing the review of Hexe, I realized that even if I sent him Deep Space to have a look at, certainly as it was then, he was going to shake his head and say, ‘nope’. The humor and approach are really similar. I was so certain, actually, that I told him as much right there. He repeated his advice in the bullets above, and reiterated that he wanted to see more.

I feel like this is the worst spot to leave a writer. I don’t even know what to do with the comments. I mean, sure, shorten it up makes sense, but play it straight? That was a choice I made specifically to support the humor and, in fact, to give the satire a little more punch. And one-note? – I’ve been thinking about this for weeks now and still don’t know what it means or how to fix it. What’s more, I walked away with the idea that I’m not very good and that the writer’s voice I’ve finally found isn’t either. To be successful, I have to write like someone I’m not.

The same agent who’d reviewed my work pointed out that there are many millions of manuscripts written every year, and only a small percentage of those ever get to print with fewer yet making it into bookstores. Not only is this environment competitive, the odds of having a story, no matter how good, make it into print and even on to the shelf at the bookstore are a million to one against.

A rejection letter without context is a kindness. The reality is that if you knew the agent’s full reasons for not requesting more, there’s a very good chance you’d throw your laptop into the ocean and never think about writing again. So, next time you get a rejection and ask “but why?” just assume they didn’t like the concept, and keep going. If you hit the point where there is nobody else to query, maybe write something else or simply self-publish then write something else. The real, honest truth is, on average, becoming published traditionally is simply not going to happen. In a lot of ways, it’s the best and most compelling argument for self-publishing I’ve run across yet.

Anyhow, that’s what I’ve got. I’m headed back into my existential funk and clean the kitchen, which will also be critiqued and found wanting. Cheers.