My sun-room window overlooks a swamp, which is currently full of leafless trees. They’re dripping with fresh rain that should have come down in the form of three or four inches of fluffy snow. Our little flock of ducks are happily waddling about the yard grubbing, for who knows what, in the muddy ground. I, however, am sitting here, thinking about writing and not actually doing it.
Right now, my current project has progressed to being about 1/2 to 3/4s done with chapter 16 (for context, this is about 72,000 words through the book). The next few chapters charge into territory I haven’t yet covered in any draft. This is partly because the original ‘next chapter’ has been moved off to chapter one of the subsequent book. However, that’s not the main reason it’s uncharted for me. While it’s true I’ve spent countless hours on nit-picky details, various bits of polishing, and improvement in content and craft, I’ve never been this close to the end of a book.
Instead of all of the motivation and excitement I should be feeling, I’m dreading what’s coming next. Shouldn’t I be pleased with my progress? After all, I’ve nearly passed an important milestone in my writing career. For whatever reason, I just can’t mentally bring myself to that place. It’s not that I’m totally lost on what to do next. In fact, what needs to happen is pretty clear, but it’s going to be difficult, and like anything that seems hard, it’s causing me a major procrastination jag.
The ending has to be tidy, exciting, and fill in some open questions, while at the same time building up to the next book. Most importantly, everything needs to come to the inevitable ending that’s not so predictable the reader knew how it was going to end by somewhere in the 4th chapter. I seriously doubt I’m going to have that problem. What I may have trouble with though is making that riveting and inevitable ending plausible.
I suppose the only course of action here is to just get the lead out. Once I get started, the last few chapters shouldn’t really take more than a few weeks to draft up. As always, there’s revision and polishing to clean up any messes, and feedback from those helpful test-readers who have already given me a tremendous amount of help.
I completely understand. I dreaded working on the last part of my book (at least during the first draft, not there yet with the final), and for many a similar reason. I wanted everything to fit perfectly, but the simple fact, as you said, is that you can’t get everything to fit until you’ve gone and written it at least one time through. And by the way, getting to the ending – super satisfying. I can’t imagine what it’s going to be like doing it for the final time.
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Sounds like you have a great grasp on your creative process! Knowing what’s holding you back is the first step forward.
Good luck and I hope you enjoy these next steps. They are among my very favorite.
Cheers!
Sue
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I’m a pretty decent developmental editor, if you want me to take a look at anything. I can find your plotholes (which the city was supposed to fill in, Sue) and I can spot the sections which need shoring up. A lot of writers work with developmental editor even before their first draft. Crazy, I know. It helps to have another set of eyes on it. Or three..
In the realm of encouragement: Get up, get vertical, get off the beach! Go go go marine!!! Close the curtains and start writing.
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I might take you up on that Pontius. First order of business though – get on my feet! Which I’m doing right now, except I’m sitting.
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